There is a reason
they tell me
Why things happen
and why they won't
There is a being
they tell me
who'll help them
if they themselves don't
When things get bad
they assure me
it's a punishment
and a vigil they must stand
When they reach out
crying for me
they pull me under
with them to the sand.
My pen reveals my heart and my soul. That has not changed since 1989.
“Ah, I’d love to wear a rainbow every day, And tell the world that everything’s OK, But I’ll try to carry off a little darkness on my back, ‘Till things are brighter, I’m the Man In Black.”--Johnny Cash
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Far and Wide
You've disappeared somewhere inside
and I've been searching
far and wide
Laying here alone
arm stretched out across my forehead
tear ducts dry
veins all bled
If I had you here before me
I'd drink you up like wine
If I had you here next to me
I'd breathe you in like ocean air
and the gray skies are like
some old friend
that follows me around
to the bitter end
to no end
and I've been searching
far and wide
Laying here alone
arm stretched out across my forehead
tear ducts dry
veins all bled
If I had you here before me
I'd drink you up like wine
If I had you here next to me
I'd breathe you in like ocean air
and the gray skies are like
some old friend
that follows me around
to the bitter end
to no end
Monday, November 22, 2010
Out there somewhere
I'm sending part of me out...
staring into the sky tonight
cigarette in hand, looking straight up
embers and the stars equally bright
Will I be getting that part back?
I don't know where it's going
streaking across the black evening
I only know it came from down low in the middle
It was a melancholy that I'd been feeling.
Is it going away?
the night's soul broadcast is over
no deposit and no return
so this night I sent out my soul and my heart
that no one's claimed, and no one's earned
and tomorrow night, I'll do it again.
staring into the sky tonight
cigarette in hand, looking straight up
embers and the stars equally bright
Will I be getting that part back?
I don't know where it's going
streaking across the black evening
I only know it came from down low in the middle
It was a melancholy that I'd been feeling.
Is it going away?
the night's soul broadcast is over
no deposit and no return
so this night I sent out my soul and my heart
that no one's claimed, and no one's earned
and tomorrow night, I'll do it again.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
I Thought
I thought I was tough
'til I got my teeth knocked out
I thought I was confident
'til she showed me doubt
I thought I knew it all
'til someone asked me to open my mouth
I thought I had resistance
'til I saw her pout
I felt the need to shout
now I whimper
It's something to see
when someone's not what they're cracked up to be
something to see
'til I got my teeth knocked out
I thought I was confident
'til she showed me doubt
I thought I knew it all
'til someone asked me to open my mouth
I thought I had resistance
'til I saw her pout
I felt the need to shout
now I whimper
It's something to see
when someone's not what they're cracked up to be
something to see
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Self-destruct
A hopeless romantic
overly dramatic
reaching for the sun
while holding the roots of a tree
afraid to run
scared to leap
toe in the water
with the neighbor's daughter
instead of the girl down the street
closing all my doors
from the inside
getting off the roller coaster
though I'm tall enough to ride
because it's safety
that I'm searching for
while trying to make my dreams come true
it's preventing a mess
while my art is coming through
You can't have one
and the other
It's like trying to breathe
while you smother
overly dramatic
reaching for the sun
while holding the roots of a tree
afraid to run
scared to leap
toe in the water
with the neighbor's daughter
instead of the girl down the street
closing all my doors
from the inside
getting off the roller coaster
though I'm tall enough to ride
because it's safety
that I'm searching for
while trying to make my dreams come true
it's preventing a mess
while my art is coming through
You can't have one
and the other
It's like trying to breathe
while you smother
Monday, November 15, 2010
It's not concrete
I've always seen myself
through someone else's eyes
All compliments I've received
I've taken them in as lies
I've felt myself a failure
at everything that I've tried
All of my relationships
have ended one way or another goodbyes
***************************************
Your fingernails are in my hair
It feels like a falsehood too
You lying underneath me now
and also somehow seems untrue
You've wrapped yourself around me
tight and wet just like glue
I wake up from this dream
and that itself is nothing new
*
*************************************
I start my day
as I begin to dress
whether or not I finish it
is anybody's guess
Friday, November 12, 2010
next level
somehow we just missed
didn't quite line up right
we liked the same
we felt the same
but the love sideswiped as it passed
When the heart's stopped beating
and my lungs no longer labor
I'll be searching for you
on the next level
even if I'm uncertain what I'm looking for
please look for my eyes
please look for my eyes
I'll reach out my hands for you
waiting in the ether
after the mortal coil's been shuffled off
we can try to make it line up right this time
please look for my eyes
and I'll keep my hands up
until you've made it through
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Glow
My hatred's iridescent
you can spot me
in the dark
If I look at you long enough
you can be sure
I'll leave a mark
I'm a torch
I'm a vice
I've erased so much inside
that you could call nice
a hand from out of the dark
stroking the side of my face
a fist full of sheet
and a heart full of grace
If I look at you look enough
you can be sure
I've lost my taste
I'm a tool
I'm a wheel
I've destroyed
my own desire to feel
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Goodbye
They're begging me to say goodbye
I won't do it, I won't even try
If I say it, it will come true
and that'll be the last I see of you
Father, forgive me for keeping it in
I'm just a boy, it can be no sin
everyone's flying around the house
ambulance will be here any second now......
.........
I'll give you that kiss on the cheek
It carries no seven letter finality
.........
Father, as the sirens faded away
I didn't see you the rest of the day
the phone call came just before dusk
turns out saying goodbye was probably a must....
I won't do it, I won't even try
If I say it, it will come true
and that'll be the last I see of you
Father, forgive me for keeping it in
I'm just a boy, it can be no sin
everyone's flying around the house
ambulance will be here any second now......
.........
I'll give you that kiss on the cheek
It carries no seven letter finality
.........
Father, as the sirens faded away
I didn't see you the rest of the day
the phone call came just before dusk
turns out saying goodbye was probably a must....
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Disconnected
I see a group of people after the bell rings
I guess you'd call them friends
I'm not comfortable with that word
it's just a means to an end
and I cock my head like a dog
and wonder what I'm looking at
I see hands entertwined
and kisses goodbye
deep looks of adoration
behind both their eyes
and I cock my head like a dog
and wonder what I'm looking at
I see a man with his kids and a ball
down at the local park
twenty years and graduation gowns
and I'm sitting in the dark
and I cock my head like a dog
and wonder what I'm looking at
Thursday, October 14, 2010
burn
I've never burned this deep inside
I've never burned this hot for real
I can cover it with a lie
try and pretend it's not a big deal
but then I'm locked up with myself
and there's no one that scares me more
I've threatened to take myself to hell
and my body's started to wash up on the shore
There's no book that I can give you to read
No chalkboard scrawling so you can understand
that some nothing would be better than this something
and there's not a damn thing bitter about the end
starting to resent the things keeping me here
blocking the doorway to the easy way out
day by day they feel less and less dear
casting more shadows on my doubt.
carry
I'm carrying a weight
that's heavy and awkward
and at this rate
I won't be moving onward
I've learned that I've got
nowhere to take this
and I've run completely out
of ways to fake this
I've missed the places and things
that are as sweet as honey
and I can no longer laugh
because nothing's funny
anymore.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Slowly petrifying
I'd be lying
if I were to say
that checking out
didn't cross my mind at least once a day
and I can't breathe
and I can't see
if I don't
have you lying here next to me
and I can't think
and I can't feel
if everyone
seems to think it's no big deal
so I'm looking
to the sky
for answers
to the how, when, and why
and they're not
coming anytime soon
I can stare up there
until the rise of the moon
yeah, maybe
I brought this on myself
sometimes shit falls
from above as you reach for the top shelf
yeah, maybe
somehow
I'm finding out
who I was isn't who I am now
going through motions
I sleep walk
focused on you,
but I'm inside, in deep thought
slowly building a wall
four corners around me
too much foundation
to ever fall
so now I'm saying goodbye
you may see me smile
but it's not real
behind my eyes
I may still
talk to you
but my heart ain't it
and hell, neither are you
if I were to say
that checking out
didn't cross my mind at least once a day
and I can't breathe
and I can't see
if I don't
have you lying here next to me
and I can't think
and I can't feel
if everyone
seems to think it's no big deal
so I'm looking
to the sky
for answers
to the how, when, and why
and they're not
coming anytime soon
I can stare up there
until the rise of the moon
yeah, maybe
I brought this on myself
sometimes shit falls
from above as you reach for the top shelf
yeah, maybe
somehow
I'm finding out
who I was isn't who I am now
going through motions
I sleep walk
focused on you,
but I'm inside, in deep thought
slowly building a wall
four corners around me
too much foundation
to ever fall
so now I'm saying goodbye
you may see me smile
but it's not real
behind my eyes
I may still
talk to you
but my heart ain't it
and hell, neither are you
Saturday, October 9, 2010
safe to say
as the leaves start to turn
water making things rust
it's safe to say
I've never been
viewed
with a combination of admiration
and lust
A Harvest Moon
she's beginning to rise
and
I've never managed
to catch her eye
it's safe to say
as day piles upon day
I've never been looked at
in that way
No, I'm not bitter
not even a touch mad
perhaps a bit heartsick
a little bit sad
I have no doubts
that I'm missing out
on something
I should have had
I've no element of danger
no reason for mistrust
wings of light in mid-flight
responsibility or bust
I'm going to fall from on high
do it or die
hate me if you must
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
No guts
watched her walk by again
did she look at me this time?
No eyes
didn't see it if she did
what would my name sound like with her voice?
No, she's too old for me
she's too smart for me
No, she's too much for me
and if not, I'll never know
No guts
sat next to her once
she even asked my name
don't remember what I said
No ears
everything she says is drowned by thought
of what a fool I'll sound like in response
No, she's too pretty for me
she's too much like perfect
No, she's got another on her mind
and if not, I'll never know
So I walk away with questions
that have nothing to do with her
they're all about my misconceptions
and my damn fear of her
watched her walk by again
did she look at me this time?
No eyes
didn't see it if she did
what would my name sound like with her voice?
No, she's too old for me
she's too smart for me
No, she's too much for me
and if not, I'll never know
No guts
sat next to her once
she even asked my name
don't remember what I said
No ears
everything she says is drowned by thought
of what a fool I'll sound like in response
No, she's too pretty for me
she's too much like perfect
No, she's got another on her mind
and if not, I'll never know
So I walk away with questions
that have nothing to do with her
they're all about my misconceptions
and my damn fear of her
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
As A Child
She made roses out of air horns
and understood the pen came long before the keys
She found wisdom in the eyes of newborns
Just knew nothing lay beyond what the eye could see
She thought as a child
distance never looked at in miles
and if I could only buy her outlook
maybe life wouldn't be so full of trials
She found the tree growing in the scrapyard
and laughed with children until they were hushed
She pointed with glee at the sky until the last star
running an hour late, the woman wouldn't be rushed
She thought as a child
looked for color and flash, not style
and if I could only take her picture
I would enlarge and frame her smile
She thought as a child
and understood the pen came long before the keys
She found wisdom in the eyes of newborns
Just knew nothing lay beyond what the eye could see
She thought as a child
distance never looked at in miles
and if I could only buy her outlook
maybe life wouldn't be so full of trials
She found the tree growing in the scrapyard
and laughed with children until they were hushed
She pointed with glee at the sky until the last star
running an hour late, the woman wouldn't be rushed
She thought as a child
looked for color and flash, not style
and if I could only take her picture
I would enlarge and frame her smile
She thought as a child
Monday, September 27, 2010
static head
My soapbox is made of balsa wood
my pedestal's a rental
the megaphone don't work worth a shit
and my hesitation is all mental
I look at you
apprehension pulling so true
got a small window to run through
I love you.
Wish I could have bit back
as soon as it came out
like a word written in erasable ink
it cannot be rubbed out
I search for some kind of clue
desire pulling me into you
heat and impulse dragging me through
I want you
Next morning staring at the ceiling
devoid of the lust, empty of feeling
wondering what just happened here
while you sleep, i feel your breath on my ear.
I'm looking for a reason for what I did
irritation pulling me toward the door
anger and confusion offering more
I left you
my pedestal's a rental
the megaphone don't work worth a shit
and my hesitation is all mental
I look at you
apprehension pulling so true
got a small window to run through
I love you.
Wish I could have bit back
as soon as it came out
like a word written in erasable ink
it cannot be rubbed out
I search for some kind of clue
desire pulling me into you
heat and impulse dragging me through
I want you
Next morning staring at the ceiling
devoid of the lust, empty of feeling
wondering what just happened here
while you sleep, i feel your breath on my ear.
I'm looking for a reason for what I did
irritation pulling me toward the door
anger and confusion offering more
I left you
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Nightmare Season
The sun rises
like a spark on an open wound
I'm stirring sugar into my hurt...
I'm sick of getting my answers
from vending machines
and why are mirrors so goddamned mean?
I pray for rain
for it's different from today
who we were, what we did
I wonder where it went
If I chased it down
would it make it harder to forget?
and Nightmare Season hasn't even started yet....
No, Nightmare season hasn't even started yet.
like a spark on an open wound
I'm stirring sugar into my hurt...
I'm sick of getting my answers
from vending machines
and why are mirrors so goddamned mean?
I pray for rain
for it's different from today
who we were, what we did
I wonder where it went
If I chased it down
would it make it harder to forget?
and Nightmare Season hasn't even started yet....
No, Nightmare season hasn't even started yet.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Never Been
I've never been an answer man
not too good working with my hands
haven't been that guy to catch a glance
or catch someone's fall where I stand
sat and watched as the moments drifted on by
always wondering, never asking
why they weren't mine
I scream at myself until my ears bleed
I point my finger in the mirror
at no one else but me
The reflection looks real
but it's all a lie
twisted, backward version of the truth
Me, Myself and I
not too good working with my hands
haven't been that guy to catch a glance
or catch someone's fall where I stand
sat and watched as the moments drifted on by
always wondering, never asking
why they weren't mine
I scream at myself until my ears bleed
I point my finger in the mirror
at no one else but me
The reflection looks real
but it's all a lie
twisted, backward version of the truth
Me, Myself and I
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Good Enough
Is there a moment
during the dying of the flame
when holding hands
no longer comes into play?
Is there a bell that rings
a striking of a clock perhaps
when a head can no longer
find purchase in a lap?
I didn't see a flash
in her beautiful eyes
when I was still inside
that said it won't be this good again,
it'll never feel this way again
When did I stop being good enough
when did this quit being real?
When did I stop being good enough
because I still burn and I still feel.....
during the dying of the flame
when holding hands
no longer comes into play?
Is there a bell that rings
a striking of a clock perhaps
when a head can no longer
find purchase in a lap?
I didn't see a flash
in her beautiful eyes
when I was still inside
that said it won't be this good again,
it'll never feel this way again
When did I stop being good enough
when did this quit being real?
When did I stop being good enough
because I still burn and I still feel.....
Monday, September 13, 2010
Baby
Used to keep you in my jacket
to shelter you from the wind
Now I sneak into your room
to watch you sleep
and pray you won't turn out like me
Like the time I jumped the fence
because you ran into the deep end
I'm prepared to jump it again
I'd trade what's left of my life
for your future to not be like my past
Always tried to prepare you
by remembering the mistakes I made
while trying not to scare you
I look up at you now for you're taller than me
But it'll always be my baby boy I see
to shelter you from the wind
Now I sneak into your room
to watch you sleep
and pray you won't turn out like me
Like the time I jumped the fence
because you ran into the deep end
I'm prepared to jump it again
I'd trade what's left of my life
for your future to not be like my past
Always tried to prepare you
by remembering the mistakes I made
while trying not to scare you
I look up at you now for you're taller than me
But it'll always be my baby boy I see
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Background
I was the boy
that didn't have any roots
wasn't from anywhere
no return address or proof
I wanted to be dangerous
wanted to be mysterious
thought of as strange
came off as furious
trying to catch an eye
without being "that guy"
I found it almost impossible
to avoiding telling a lie
she won't look over here
she won't know my name
why am I so insecure
why does she drive me insane?
Because I've no stories to tell
no frilly past to share
never been to the liberty bell
never smelled a hotdog in times square
and there's no fighting chance
competing with the other guys
they've got familiarity
they've got pretty eyes
so I go it alone
ten speed windy nights
rain washes back my hair
eyes lit by street lights
that didn't have any roots
wasn't from anywhere
no return address or proof
I wanted to be dangerous
wanted to be mysterious
thought of as strange
came off as furious
trying to catch an eye
without being "that guy"
I found it almost impossible
to avoiding telling a lie
she won't look over here
she won't know my name
why am I so insecure
why does she drive me insane?
Because I've no stories to tell
no frilly past to share
never been to the liberty bell
never smelled a hotdog in times square
and there's no fighting chance
competing with the other guys
they've got familiarity
they've got pretty eyes
so I go it alone
ten speed windy nights
rain washes back my hair
eyes lit by street lights
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Ah Via Fortuna
I placed my bets and lost again
keep backing the wrong horse
Lady Luck crept out of the bed
she's nothing but a cheap whore
The chips I've had since I was a boy
long lost before I became a man
my poker face slapped and destroyed
by a woman with a flash hand
black cards in her fingers fanned
diamond eyes flashed as I ran
Does Duchess Fate have love for me?
does she kiss as the wind speaks?
or will she claw my back until it bleeds
Laughing hard as the claret seeps?
Madame Fortune, when do I turn the tide
Or do the scales keep leaning your way?
Bad Idea making luck your bride
Win or lose, the bitch makes you pay
from now til your dying day
she sweeps up your ashes and blows them away
keep backing the wrong horse
Lady Luck crept out of the bed
she's nothing but a cheap whore
The chips I've had since I was a boy
long lost before I became a man
my poker face slapped and destroyed
by a woman with a flash hand
black cards in her fingers fanned
diamond eyes flashed as I ran
Does Duchess Fate have love for me?
does she kiss as the wind speaks?
or will she claw my back until it bleeds
Laughing hard as the claret seeps?
Madame Fortune, when do I turn the tide
Or do the scales keep leaning your way?
Bad Idea making luck your bride
Win or lose, the bitch makes you pay
from now til your dying day
she sweeps up your ashes and blows them away
Monday, September 6, 2010
woman
Breathing some air
into this day
Love's so heavy
only God knows
what it weighs
It's almost impossible
to carry around
you're incomplete
til you find a place
to put it down
Oh, I can see you
But I can tell you've gone away
woman, where'd you fly off to today?
You're sitting before me
But I can tell something's not quite right
woman, where'd you go to tonight?
It's so painfully obvious
rock hard truth right now
You're lying beside me
but you've left me anyhow
into this day
Love's so heavy
only God knows
what it weighs
It's almost impossible
to carry around
you're incomplete
til you find a place
to put it down
Oh, I can see you
But I can tell you've gone away
woman, where'd you fly off to today?
You're sitting before me
But I can tell something's not quite right
woman, where'd you go to tonight?
It's so painfully obvious
rock hard truth right now
You're lying beside me
but you've left me anyhow
hooked
She felt like velvet, and tasted chocolate smooth
Following her down the rabbit hole might make me a fool
But beautiful pain is caused by her every move
For her I'd gladly rewrite and break every rule
Don't question, don't ask
if I'm thinking straight
Just leave me, just let me
drown in her fucking wake
Running my hands through her hair
feeling sparks of iniquity
standing close to her neck
is like smelling eternity
and you question, you wonder
why I've given in again today
Just leave me, just let me
Burn down and ash away....
Following her down the rabbit hole might make me a fool
But beautiful pain is caused by her every move
For her I'd gladly rewrite and break every rule
Don't question, don't ask
if I'm thinking straight
Just leave me, just let me
drown in her fucking wake
Running my hands through her hair
feeling sparks of iniquity
standing close to her neck
is like smelling eternity
and you question, you wonder
why I've given in again today
Just leave me, just let me
Burn down and ash away....
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Waiting
Walking with my head down against the cold, breath trapped by the wind otherwise.
Collar up, thinking of you, where I should go, and what I'm going to do
Waiting for a phone call that never comes, checking the light on my cell by the minute,
and it doesn't change, things don't rearrange, and I'm exhausted by it all
looking for the key to my smile, feeling my pockets and not knowing why
because motion is a thing to do, and a substitute for what to be
For when you're lost on your feet, you reach inside for a reason and a rhyme
Walking with my guard up against what may be, apprehensiveness puts some people off
Lord knows I don't mean it, pushing away those I wish to keep beside me
for my unsure personage doesn't know if I am capable of taking hold of them forever
and it doesn't change, this fear will not wane, and I'm frustrated by it all
looking for the door to release, feeling for my soul and not knowing why
because self-inspection is a thing to do, and a mechanism for what to see
Collar up, thinking of you, where I should go, and what I'm going to do
Waiting for a phone call that never comes, checking the light on my cell by the minute,
and it doesn't change, things don't rearrange, and I'm exhausted by it all
looking for the key to my smile, feeling my pockets and not knowing why
because motion is a thing to do, and a substitute for what to be
For when you're lost on your feet, you reach inside for a reason and a rhyme
Walking with my guard up against what may be, apprehensiveness puts some people off
Lord knows I don't mean it, pushing away those I wish to keep beside me
for my unsure personage doesn't know if I am capable of taking hold of them forever
and it doesn't change, this fear will not wane, and I'm frustrated by it all
looking for the door to release, feeling for my soul and not knowing why
because self-inspection is a thing to do, and a mechanism for what to see
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Ah Via Nocturna
Twisted and warped
are the people I know
combined and dessicated
are the places I go
someone explain to me why it feels so real
laughing until I vomit onto my last meal
Science Fiction Nightmares
and pornographic dreams
somehow, some way
they both end in screams
someone explain to me why it feels so real
crying until I giggle into the razor's steel
It's getting so I don't want to go to bed
because of who and what awaits me in my head
They lure me in
smiles playing on my urges
as the clothes come off
that shotgun emerges
I cannot find peace because of what lives
in the dancing shadows behind my eyelids
Reflection
I can make you smile
while I'm gritting my teeth til they break
I hate my name
unless it's on someone else
when my glass heart breaks
is it like a tree falling in the forest?
I can't see
what others see
what other say
I've never believed
I'm not the one
I'm not at all.
while I'm gritting my teeth til they break
I hate my name
unless it's on someone else
when my glass heart breaks
is it like a tree falling in the forest?
I can't see
what others see
what other say
I've never believed
I'm not the one
I'm not at all.
Falling Short
Every wedding has a shotgun
every corner has a ghost
on the outside I appear alive
middle in is all compost
watching my feet for I fear the eyes
I give as much as is taken away
travelling on an empty tank
every sunset erases a day
because there are magnets all around me
and I am metal from a scrap heap
what's coming off and out's astounding
every hole empties, no matter how deep
and every corner has a ghost
every woman walks away
and every garden seeds it's weeds
every resource falls short of need
I don't have anything left to bleed
nothing left to share today
my chain is missing it's most important key
still too many bills to pay.
every corner has a ghost
on the outside I appear alive
middle in is all compost
watching my feet for I fear the eyes
I give as much as is taken away
travelling on an empty tank
every sunset erases a day
because there are magnets all around me
and I am metal from a scrap heap
what's coming off and out's astounding
every hole empties, no matter how deep
and every corner has a ghost
every woman walks away
and every garden seeds it's weeds
every resource falls short of need
I don't have anything left to bleed
nothing left to share today
my chain is missing it's most important key
still too many bills to pay.
Differences
used to wear my heart on my sleeve
til it fell off onto my shoes
creates a bloody mess
but now I'm walking away with feeling...
broke up for musical differences
I wrote poetry
you wrote songs
could have collaborated on a sonnett
but it takes too goddamn long
Sorry I changed your lyrics
Sorry I changed your mind
Sorry that saying Sorry
doesn't mean anything this time
So I feel we should just
agree to disagree
say what you gotta say
and I'll file it away
pull it out, on down the road
on some crimson rainy day
and use it to wipe the smile off your face....
til it fell off onto my shoes
creates a bloody mess
but now I'm walking away with feeling...
broke up for musical differences
I wrote poetry
you wrote songs
could have collaborated on a sonnett
but it takes too goddamn long
Sorry I changed your lyrics
Sorry I changed your mind
Sorry that saying Sorry
doesn't mean anything this time
So I feel we should just
agree to disagree
say what you gotta say
and I'll file it away
pull it out, on down the road
on some crimson rainy day
and use it to wipe the smile off your face....
Unwise
And she was only just 15
and for some reason completely wrapped up in me
and I should have known better than
to tempt fate, hormones, and the powers that be
but there was something in those eyes
that told me that I wasn't just another guy
and I should have known better than
to toss caution to the wind and let it fly
when someone makes you feel real
valid, strong, virile, and full of appeal
it's tough to resist common sense
and not joint the devil's hand in a deal
but there was something in those eyes
that made me feel it was worth at least a try
and I should have known better than
let my spirit rise up and soar so high
because she was unrealistic
felt like she was older than she really was
and I was strong and resisted
through short breaths, shaking hands, and an adrenaline buzz
time passed, and she was never around
telephone call came and she let me down
funny thing being the older one
left feeling like a cheap knockoff carnival clown
and for some reason completely wrapped up in me
and I should have known better than
to tempt fate, hormones, and the powers that be
but there was something in those eyes
that told me that I wasn't just another guy
and I should have known better than
to toss caution to the wind and let it fly
when someone makes you feel real
valid, strong, virile, and full of appeal
it's tough to resist common sense
and not joint the devil's hand in a deal
but there was something in those eyes
that made me feel it was worth at least a try
and I should have known better than
let my spirit rise up and soar so high
because she was unrealistic
felt like she was older than she really was
and I was strong and resisted
through short breaths, shaking hands, and an adrenaline buzz
time passed, and she was never around
telephone call came and she let me down
funny thing being the older one
left feeling like a cheap knockoff carnival clown
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