It's not concrete

I've always seen myself through someone else's eyes All compliments I've received I've taken them in as lies I've felt myself a failure at everything that I've tried 

 All of my relationships have ended one way or another goodbyes *************************************** 

 Your fingernails are in my hair 

It feels like a falsehood too

 You lying underneath me now 

and also somehow seems untrue 

 You've wrapped yourself around me 

tight and wet just like glue 

 I wake up from this dream and that itself is nothing new *

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 I start my day as I begin to dress 

 whether or not I finish it is anybody's guess