Thursday, November 25, 2010

Far and Wide

You've disappeared somewhere inside
and I've been searching
far and wide

Laying here alone
arm stretched out across my forehead
tear ducts dry
veins all bled

If I had you here before me
I'd drink you up like wine

If I had you here next to me
I'd breathe you in like ocean air

and the gray skies are like
some old friend
that follows me around
to the bitter end
to no end

Monday, November 22, 2010

Out there somewhere

I'm sending part of me out...
staring into the sky tonight
cigarette in hand, looking straight up
embers and the stars equally bright


Will I be getting that part back?


I don't know where it's going
streaking across the black evening
I only know it came from down low in the middle
It was a melancholy that I'd been feeling.


Is it going away?


the night's soul broadcast is over
no deposit and no return
so this night I sent out my soul and my heart
that no one's claimed, and no one's earned


and tomorrow night, I'll do it again.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I Thought

I thought I was tough
'til I got my teeth knocked out

I thought I was confident
'til she showed me doubt

I thought I knew it all
'til someone asked me to open my mouth

I thought I had resistance
'til I saw her pout

I felt the need to shout
now I whimper

It's something to see
when someone's not what they're cracked up to be

something to see

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Self-destruct

A hopeless romantic
overly dramatic
reaching for the sun
while holding the roots of a tree

afraid to run
scared to leap
toe in the water
with the neighbor's daughter
instead of the girl down the street

closing all my doors
from the inside
getting off the roller coaster
though I'm tall enough to ride

because it's safety
that I'm searching for
while trying to make my dreams come true

it's preventing a mess
while my art is coming through

You can't have one
and the other
It's like trying to breathe
while you smother

Monday, November 15, 2010

It's not concrete

I've always seen myself
through someone else's eyes

All compliments I've received
I've taken them in as lies

I've felt myself a failure
at everything that I've tried

All of my relationships
have ended one way or another goodbyes


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Your fingernails are in my hair
It feels like a falsehood too

You lying underneath me now
and also somehow seems untrue

You've wrapped yourself around me
tight and wet just like glue

I wake up from this dream
and that itself is nothing new


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I start my day
as I begin to dress

whether or not I finish it
is anybody's guess

Friday, November 12, 2010

next level

somehow we just missed
didn't quite line up right

we liked the same
we felt the same
but the love sideswiped as it passed

When the heart's stopped beating
and my lungs no longer labor
I'll be searching for you
on the next level

even if I'm uncertain what I'm looking for
please look for my eyes
please look for my eyes

I'll reach out my hands for you
waiting in the ether
after the mortal coil's been shuffled off

we can try to make it line up right this time
please look for my eyes
and I'll keep my hands up

until you've made it through

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Glow

My hatred's iridescent
you can spot me
in the dark

If I look at you long enough
you can be sure
I'll leave a mark

I'm a torch
I'm a vice
I've erased so much inside
that you could call nice

a hand from out of the dark
stroking the side of my face
a fist full of sheet
and a heart full of grace

If I look at you look enough
you can be sure
I've lost my taste

I'm a tool
I'm a wheel
I've destroyed
my own desire to feel