This Island Worry

Just because I don't say I'm worried
Sure as hell doesn't mean I'm not
My mind has 5 different things on it
and my stomach's tied in knots

Things that are beyond my control
have begun to steadily control me
Can't fight the things outside
more frightened of the ones within I can't see

So if I don't tell you
what I've got on my mind
that is ripping me apart
does that make it a lie?

When I shoot up stick straight
in the middle of the night
sweat flying from my head
No one there to make it alright

My hands are there for me
to bury my face deep into
for the time being
that is all I can do....

Don't go outside

Flowers in bloom fire bullets at you
birds in flight use their wings
to slash you through

when every corner has a slap in the face
every moment you have lived
makes this a digrace

Your third degree words
have left burns all over me

Your lack of touch
has made ice out of my flesh
your lack of humility
has burned down all that is left

so let me drop to my knees in the rain
you're free to watch me go down now
It's a show you started anyhow

Half Empty

Every glass I pull from the cupboard
has a crack
Every shoe that I put on
has a hole

I don't like a single song
I hear on the radio

But what do I know?

Every day the sun rises
it lights on things I hate
Every place I have to go
makes me more irate
I don't like a single moment
that i spend by myself

It's a different flavor of alone

PURE

It's like cold dead air
a stagnant refrain
fear of what was
infringing on this plane



i'm not who I was
i'm not where I was


but I'm pure



and i can't see
through my tears
and i can't bleed
I'm a corpse for years



I'm not who I was
i'm not where I was



There's no denying
that I've been treading water
there's been lots of lying
and I've been dreading slaughter



but it's the only way
I can be pure

rip it down, tear it down

breathe, let it free
circus clown, burning down



at last free
to be me



and I'm pure.

The End

Intentions mean nothing
to those that suffer
so if I'm the antagonist
there's no buffer

and I too will cry
you'll see it as a lie

and I too will die
a little bit inside

I'm sorry if I hurt you
It wasn't what I meant to do
but I was dying, dying inside
who's then left alive....

and I too will see
there wouldn't be much left of me

and I too will need
too root for those I made bleed

He has a plan

There is a reason
they tell me
Why things happen
and why they won't

There is a being
they tell me
who'll help them
if they themselves don't

When things get bad
they assure me
it's a punishment
and a vigil they must stand

When they reach out
crying for me
they pull me under
with them to the sand.

Far and Wide

You've disappeared somewhere inside
and I've been searching
far and wide

Laying here alone
arm stretched out across my forehead
tear ducts dry
veins all bled

If I had you here before me
I'd drink you up like wine

If I had you here next to me
I'd breathe you in like ocean air

and the gray skies are like
some old friend
that follows me around
to the bitter end
to no end